Every one has lives, we all try, we all fail. Sometimes our lives are busy as hell. But what is true is that we chose the hell we live in. If you need a day because all you've been feeling is motion lately it's because you chose it.
Those choices are lessons and when we see pattern after pattern of us confessing we made the same mistake time and time again then it's become the life you chose the live. Sorry means nothing once the offense has taken place and if they are stacking up in the same category then you definitely have failed your self and those who've come before you, setting the pace.
Stop what you are doing. Remove anything you don't use or need. Make yourself sacrifice for another person, a real true sacrifice. Make them really happy.
Give up the shell you live in and let your soul feel sunlight it probably needs it, since it's been down in that dark place for so long letting your ego
pretend to be something it's not.
Thats the filthiest of filth and it's a good day to get rid of it.
Divine cannot touch your life if you don't dump the discusting filth covering your life. Ego.
Im serious let it go. Kick it out. And set healthy boundaries for your self with yourself and after you set your self straight then you can figure who's good for you. Who can stay and who needs to go.
Just remember you are where you chose to be. There is no other person to blame. No bill collector, no unpaid parking tickets, the city, the state, your neighbor, roommate. Not even your best friend. This is a place you wanted to be and you made it happen one choice at a time
Get better friend. You deserve it.